MEComposing

Although a little depressed and hassled by my recent allergic episode that necessitated a trip to the ER and a prescription of soooo many meds, September has been a little better mood-wise for me.

And although i've been hemming and hawing over plans... I think am really going to pursue something that's a little close to heart.

I am meeting with friends on Sept. 27... they are ecstatic over culinary school and party planning business. Their passions. I want to be like them. I just really have to not be scared of wanting to fail or be different.

Facebook also helped.

Mec got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that what you are most afraid of is where your greatest rewards are.

If all you had to do was wish for something and you would have it, life would be pretty boring, wouldn't it? God placed barriers between us and what we want, so we can enjoy interesting and satisfying lives. God hid our biggest rewards behind the highest barriers - our deepest fears. God wants us to face our fears, and hold ground in their presence, and let them go, and that's how we get out biggest rewards. What are you most afraid of? Say it, just start by saying it.

I am scared of not being good enough. Of starting from scratch. Of not knowing. Of failing.