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Suffer the fluctuating, soc thoughts... please...

Because I was sad and because I needed physical, tangible comfort, my friend MisB watched a movie with me.

LOVE ACTUALLY

It was great that a cohesion was indeed mustered for all the characters and different kinds of love in the movie. Of course, you just have to love Hugh Grant's dancing, or the really yummy Clark... or the quiet intensity of Colin Firth...

but...

it's the Carol Singers guy, the one who, all this time, was also in love with the girl his bestfriend married... that got to me...

Of course, the flair of the wedding surprise he pulled off was "kakakilig" enough... but it's his Christmas greeting that absolutely, absolutely touched/floored me...

And with that in mind, and since I am not that crazy nor crazily in love i think, let me just post here something which I should (maybe) tell someone in my life...

IT IS NOT CHRISTMAS
BUT SINCE I LET CHRISTMAS PASS
WITHOUT TELLING YOU THIS TRUTH
LET ME CORRECT THAT MISTAKE
BY BEING HONEST NOW
FIRST, I THANK YOU
FOR THE ROLE THAT YOU PLAY IN MY LIFE
AND LET ME JUST SAY
TO ME, YOU ARE PERFECT
AND THAT, SOMETIMES
IN THE COURSE OF OUR FRIENDSHIP
I REALLY THINK
THAT YOU'D MAKE ME REALLY HAPPY
IF YOU BECOME MORE THAN A FRIEND
AND BE THE LOVER
THAT I'VE ALWAYS DREAMED OF
BUT I DO NOT SAY THIS NOW
ASKING FOR SUCH
FOR I KNOW I WON'T
MAKE YOU
THAT KIND OF HAPPY
AND I DO NOT SAY THIS
WITH SADNESS
THAT MY PLIGHT IS SUCH
AM JUST REALLY ALREADY HAPPY
THAT YOU'RE IN MY LIFE
AND I JUST REALLY
WANT YOU TO KNOW
THAT AM SURE SOMEONE ELSE
WILL FIND YOU EVERY BIT
BEAUTIFUL AND GOD-SENT
AS I DO
AND THAT SHE WILL CHERISH YOU
AS MUCH AS I ALREADY DO

Out of my chest now... :)

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One other thing that made me really think... Emma Thompson's character asked her husband what she should do... and what meaning to attach to the necklace she knew her husband bought, but she didn't get...

Is it just a necklace.. is it necklace and sex... is it necklace, sex and divorce...

*~*

Anyway, God is really good... HE didn't take my sorrows away... but HE gave me several different perspectives of looking at my experiences...