MEComposing

There goes a saying, something to the effect that...

FOOD IS NOT SOMETHING YOU FILL YOURSELF WITH WHEN YOU'RE FEELING EMPTY.

Anyway, to heck with that... I've recently found myself always hungry and always having cravings unstatisfied...

And so, I miss my ex.

It's bad, I know.

But he was a person who would always lament and grieve when I skip meals. He was one person who'd always shower me with cravings and favorite stuff. He was one person who would always insist on what I want to eat when we go out. He was one person who'd forego a lot of things, even nookie or a movie date, as long as I can eat satisfactorily. He would even spend hard-earned money on just feeding me. And even when it's really ok that we not eat, he'd be devastated. He'd always tell me that he feels useless when he's not able to feed me... to provide for that very basic need and pleasure.

Nobody has been feeding me lately. And because I'm feeling all kinds of insecure and sad... it's really nice to be fed sana...

And it's not that I don't appreciate the Kitkats and token WCs given me by friends...

But it's not the same.

With my ex, my stomach was my heart and he took great care of that.

I miss my ex.

(Besides, there is something very intimate about sharing a meal with a loved one...)