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THIRTEEN THOUSAND TWO HUNDRED PESOS.

That's enough money to buy a camera phone.

And enough money to buy a digicam for that matter.

It's enough money to buy an appliance... or pay most of my sister's tuition for a semester.

It's enough for more than half of a birthday bash at McDo or Jollibee for my nephew...

And enough for a trip to Cebu or Palawan or Bohol or Davao or even Boracay.

It's enough for a lot of things... dentures, glasses, milk, groceries, kinky toys, medicine, gym membership, a treadmill of my own, new wardrobe, new mountaineering gear, a year's supply of white choclates, or a choco binge at Leonida's... the list can go on and on and on...

But I really have to be happy enough to deposit said amount, and charge it via Paylite, to FAMILY FIRST.

Yes, I was happy! That I think is the basic reason I even said YES because i've said NO to other schemes and pyramid eklats before... happy because I was thinking of weddings and pregnancies and a happy family life... because I was on my way to my friend's shower...

Happy... and so they were able to sell me their scheme. Actually, if not for my credit card, i'd have been useless to them, and they wouldn't have been able to convince me to shell out that much money... but i can't exactly blame the providence that allowed me to have my credit card with me that time, now, could i?

THIRTEEN THOUSAND AND TWO HUNDRED PESOS

Enough money to teach me a lesson about handling my finances.

Enough to make me bleed for the coming months because payment of such will require me to sacrifice planned out-of-town trips and other luxuires, like load, white chocolate, new undies...

Enough to make me feel all the more bad about not providing more for my family... (I can just hear my Mom's parinigs about my mid-year bonus)

Enough to be a real learning experience...

and enough to make me realize I'm loved and honored and respected and considered all kinds of intelligent and wise... inspite the obvious lack of better judgment...

Really, it hurts me a lot right now... but it's still a cheap price to pay for the knowledge of who will still be rooting for me... and supporting me... during down times...

And who I can trust to love me anyway...

Sigh... I just hope others won't commit the same folly. And friends and lurkers, feel free to laugh at my expense... someday, i'd be laughing at myself too... :)

At least, when am no longer poor.