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I don't know how to feel exactly. And I don't want to dwell on past conversations and what-could-have-beens. And if I will be true to myself, there really isn't pain... just some sort of jealousy. And yeah, some sadness.

I remember with an ex before... peace and closure came when he called to invite me to his wedding. Because then I realized we weren't really meant to be, and all the pain of the separation then was for a greater good. A greater love.

In a way it feels like that again, only greater. Because I felt I sort of left you behind. Because I always wanted to be sure you will end up as happy as I am. Because I want you to be loved and to love as much as I am. Because I love you and would always want nothing but the best for you.

I couldn't be that woman for you. But surely, this is a sign that I wasn't really meant to be that woman for you.

And it's okay. I'm happy. And now I know you are happy too.

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Show me a Sign (Rachel Coleman)

"Tell me that you love, tell me that you're thinking of me
Tell me all about the things you're thinking
Day and night, both day and night
Tell me that you're happy and you love it when we're laughing
tell me more, oh, tell me more
Show me a sign"